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Post by Cydonia on Nov 1, 2006 19:30:19 GMT 1
He said that he was ok with porn. He even asked if he could watch Harry and me as free porn but I told him NO.
*giggle* I bum this fic almoats as much as i bum you m'dear ;D
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Post by Kristin( : on Nov 1, 2006 19:37:19 GMT 1
Bump Julieeee... kan vi få mere?
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Post by Julie:) on Nov 2, 2006 18:58:25 GMT 1
Maha thank youuuuuu! ;D bum you more thea. 18.
It was a cold November day and I had promised Danny to go to Tesco and by him a boxer, because he said he needed one. Harry and Nick decided to stay in since it was so could and I didn’t want Nick to catch the flu. As I was looking for the right boxer a young boy came over to me. He was about thirteen. “Excuse me…You’re Harry Judds wife, aren’t you?” He asked me. I jumped cause I didn’t see him come. “Well, I’m not his wife…yet, but I’m his girlfriend.” I smiled. He smiled back. “Awh, sorry… Your Danny’s sister as well aren’t you?” The boy asked me again. I nodded my head. “Hehe, I am indeed.” I replied before I turned my head slightly looking at the boxers. “You two are sure some amazing siblings. I bet your parents must be very proud!” The little boy suddenly said. I had no idea whether he did this on purpose or whether he just… said it you know. I just laughed slightly and gave him a nod. At the dinner table I was all quiet. Nick had learned a few more words and talked like it was no tomorrow. Danny and Harry were having a conversation about the band and press and stuff which I decided to stay out of as it always became fights whenever I butt in. I just had a lot on my mind and I thought a lot about mum and dad. I hadn’t spoken to dad since the day he was put in prison and I didn’t even know whether he was alive or not, which scared me slightly. Danny didn’t seem to care much about it though. But I knew he thought a lot about mum, like me. I guess it was just something neither of us could forget. “Anything wrong, darling?” Harry suddenly asked me while he stroked my chin. I gave him a sweet smile and shook my head. “Are you sure, m’love?” he asked me once more and looked me in the eyes. Those eyes. You could get lost in Harry’s eyes. They were beautiful. “You just went all quiet and you know that makes me worried.” He said and gave me a soft kiss. “Please, we’re eating…” Danny said with his mouth full of spaghetti. “Shut up!” Harry said and gave me another kiss, tongue this time. “Shud opp!” Nick laughed while he threw spaghetti all around him. “Nicholas!” I raised my voice and gave him an angry look. He got tears in his eyes. “Mummy…” He said and gave me his puppy dog eyes. It was Harry’s eyes, just a smaller version. “You’re not allowed to say such things and do not throw spaghetti on the floor.” I think I’d made myself clear there. “You don’t actually think he understands what you’re saying, do you?” Danny suddenly spoke and gave me a smile. I shrugged. “God, I love you!” Harry giggled and kissed my nose. I smiled. “Now, Mr. Judd… you know you shouldn’t teach your son such words.” I said and referred to the ‘shut up’ thing. “Alright, I’m sorry, mam, am I forgiven?!” He asked and tried not to laugh. Danny burst out laughing and spaghetti just flew out of his mouth. “Danny!” I said as the table was now covered in spaghetti. “Sowwy!” He said still laughing with his mouth full of food. God, that boy never grows up.
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Post by Julie:) on Nov 2, 2006 18:59:06 GMT 1
19.
“Mummy!” Nick said and opened his arms for me to come and lift him up. I walked over and carried him downstairs and sat down in front of the TV. McFly were going to do an interview so we decided to stay in and have a cosy time while watching it. “Look, there’s daddy!” I smiled as I pointed to the TV when it started. Nick giggled when he saw him. “Daddy!” He screamed and I laughed. “Danny!!” He shouted. “Danny?” I asked. He had never said that name before. Nick pointed to where Danny sat in the sofa. I smiled and gave him a gentle kiss on his soft head. The interview was about the usual stuff. The new album, the tour and fans. That was alright for me, the part I didn’t like was when they started asking about family and girlfriends and such. I mean, for Harry it was probably alright cause everyone knew that he had a girlfriend by now and a son. Danny was the one I was worried about. He had to explain himself in every single interview why he hadn’t got a girlfriend and why he didn’t want one. It was a shame really, cause Danny was a wonderful boy if I could say so myself, and I knew he could pull many girls. Nick soon fell asleep in my lap and I continued watching the interview. Harry seemed quite annoyed with something but I didn’t exactly know what. “Danny, is it true that you have no contact with either of your parents?” The interviewer suddenly asked. I placed my hand in front of my mouth. Did he really ask that question? I could tell Danny wasn’t quite sure what to say. “Uhm… I don’t know what to answer, really…” He paused. “That is actually private stuff incase you didn’t know…” Harry backed Danny up. “I know, but it’s a simple question, yes or no?” The interviewer said with a cheeky grin. I felt the anger build up. Danny let out a weak laugh. “Hehe, you know… I’d like to keep that to myself if that’s alright, it’s kind of complicated…” He said while running his hand through his hair. “I’m sure the fans would apprecia…” The interviewer got cut off by Harry; “Well, I’m sure Danny would appreciate if you’d shut up about that, ok?” He sounded angry now. I couldn’t believe my eyes. Why wouldn’t this prat of an interviewer listen when they said no? If I had been there I’d probably hit him. “Ok…I’m sorry…” The interviewer, called Steve btw, finally said. Danny gave him a polite nod. “Well, you should be!”Dougie said and sounded quite annoyed. I could tell that the boys felt uncomfortable and wanted to leave. “So…Tom, I heard some rumours about your girlfriend being pregnant?!” Steve continued. Tom sighed. “Oh please, go f*ck yourself!” Harry shouted and got up and left the studio. The others left were looking from one to another and kept their mouths shot. “We’ll be right back…” Steve suddenly said and got up after the cameras were switched off. I decided to turn the TV off and rest just like Nick. I suddenly woke up when I heard the front door slam. Nick was still asleep so I thought I’d just lay there and if Harry wanted to talk he could come to me. “F*CKING H*LL!! AAAARRGGHHHHH!!” I heard Harry swear from downstairs. “ALEXY WHERE ARE YOU? I NEED YOU!” He shouted. He sounded like he was about to cry. I carefully lifted Nick of my lap and placed a blanket over the little body and then I made my way downstairs. “Harry, Nick’s sleeping will you please lower your voice?” I said carefully as I entered the kitchen where he sat with his head buried in his hands. He got up the moment he saw me and pulled me into a big hug. “Al, I’ve had such a bad day. I hate this business, you wouldn’t believe what that Steve prick…” “I watched it on telly…” I cut him off while rubbing his back. We hugged for ages and Harry was literally sobbing. “Seriously, he wouldn’t stop asking and I felt so sorry for Danny cause he didn’t know what to say and you just…I’m… PLEASE don’t leave me, Alex, please!” Harry cried into my arms. My eyebrows rose. I had no idea this had got into him that much. “What are you talking about, darling? Why should I leave you?” I asked him while looking intensely into his blue eyes. Obviously something else was bothering him, he couldn’t possible get so sad just because of that. “Just please listen… don’t ever leave me…” Harry was now crying hysterically. I started to get worried. “Harry look at me.” I said and looked at him but he looked down. “Harry!” I called once more and lifted his chin so he was facing me. He looked terrified and his eyes were red from crying. “Honey, what’s wrong?!” I whispered to him as I gave him a soft kiss. He was shaking. “Harry, please…” I begged him as he sobbed into my chest. He’d never acted like this before. He pulled me in for one more kiss and sort of forced his tongue inside my mouth. I pulled away right away and Harry gave me a look of hurt. “This is the last time I’m gonna ask and if you don’t answer I’ll stop bothering…” I told him and gave him a disappointed look. He let out a huge sigh while the tears streamed. “Alexandra…I’ve got Aids.”
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Post by Cydonia on Nov 2, 2006 19:16:39 GMT 1
OMG!!!!!!! dramatiiiisk
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Post by Kristin( : on Nov 2, 2006 19:29:57 GMT 1
harry got Aids That made me laugh MOooore?!
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Post by Julie:) on Nov 5, 2006 2:03:34 GMT 1
Okæj...jeg vet at de fleste som får Aids dør men folk i denne historien er untak, ok? FINT. 20.
I think my heart stopped for a while when he told me. I was just staring at his sad face. It gave no expression. Did he really say what I thought he said? “Please say something…” Harry whispered as more tears rolled down. I was speechless. Omg, poor baby. “I… maybe….how do you know?” I whispered back as I felt the tears were begging to come out. “I went to see a doctor, but I didn’t tell you anything cause I wasn’t sure you know. I’ve had a treatment though, so they said I’ll probably be ok. But I was so scared!” He told me with the weakest voice I’ve ever heard him talk with. “Oh…” I managed to let out as I watched him talk. The tears were now falling down my cheeks. I had no idea what to say. “But…” I paused. “… if you’ve got it…then maybe I do…as well?” I really struggled with speaking now. He just looked at me with his beautiful eyes which were all red and watery. “You most certainly do…” Harry whispered as he broke down in tears. I just glared at him. I was in shock. “…but you may not, it’s not all cases where both parts in a relationship get it…” Harry tried his best to calm me down, but for no use. I’d never been so scared in my life. “I’ve got Aids, Harry… I’ve got Aids!” I raised my voice and looked at him. I didn’t know whether to laugh or scream or cry. “We need to get you checked, Alex… now!” Harry said and took my hand. I couldn’t move. “What…what about Nick?” I asked after a while. I had stopped crying but I’d probably burst out anytime. No, I wouldn’t. I was a strong girl. I’d always been. I tried to avoid talking, but it was abit hard. “We’ll call Danny…” Harry said. “You talk…I can’t right now.” I said as I stared at the floor. “What should I say?” Harry asked me while he tried to pull himself together and wiped another tear. I thought for a while. “Tell him the truth…” I finally decided. Danny was my best friend and I’d never hide anything from him. “Harry?” I asked while he dialled Danny’s number. Harry looked at me. “Yes, m’love?” “Who’ll look after Nick?” “What do you mean…?” Harry gave me an uncomfortable look. “I mean, when we’re both dead… Danny or your parents?” I asked while looking into his eyes. “Alex, don’t you ever talk like that. If anyone of us is going to die, which I highly doubt, it will be me, ok? You’re safe. I promise.” He said while giving me a hug. He tightened his grip around me and his strong drum-arms felt warm and safe. “No, you’re not gonna die, you’re…” “Shhh…ok?” He asked me once more while looking at me. Now, I was shaking. “Ok…” I whispered as I shivered badly into his grip.
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Post by Julie:) on Nov 5, 2006 2:04:21 GMT 1
21.
“Alexandra Judd?” the doctor asked as we got into his office. “Uhm, no still Jones…” I said and forced a smile. “Oh right, sorry. Alexandra Jones, then. I’m Dr. Shepherd.” [] The doctor said and smiled back. I just gave him a polite nod and shook his hand. “And Harry, we’ve already met.” Dr. Shepherd said as he gave Harry a supporting smile. “Yes…” Harry answered and looked around himself. I could tell he was nervous for me. I was as well. You have idea how nervous I was at that time. I was worried about Nick. He was with Dougie, Danny wanted to come with me so he left Nick at Dougie’s and that was alright with me. Danny couldn’t come in so he was waiting outside with Tom. I took some tests and then I had to wait outside together with Harry, Danny and Tom.
“Ok, Alexandra, I’ve got the results now…” Dr. Shepherd said as he came into the waiting room where I was sat in the middle of Harry and Danny. Both of my hands were taken. Harry in the right and Danny in the left. “If you could come into my office I’d be glad…alone this time please.” The doctor continued looking at me. I looked from Harry to Tom to Danny. “Go…” Danny said as he squeezed my hand. Tom nodded. I looked at Harry. He gave me a long watery kiss. “Now…” He whispered into my ear after we’d kissed. I nodded and got up from my chair and followed Dr. Shepherd. I turned my head while walking and looked at Harry. “I love you!” He mouthed at me. I just gave him a weak smile before he disappeared in the bunch of people who were sitting there waiting. “So, Miss Jones…” Dr. Shepherd paused. My eyes were resting on his face. What was he going to tell me? Good or bad news? “I’m afraid…” He paused again. Oh no, I thought. “Alexandra, from your results I can see that you’ve unfortunately got Aids.” Dr. Shepherd told me and took my hand. I gulped. My breath became slower and I felt like I was struggling so hard just to breathe in. I nodded my head while a tear rolled down. “I’ll get treatment, right?” I suddenly spoke and looked him in the eyes. His face faded, well it looked like to me anyway. “About that….” He paused and I heard he found it hard to talk. “Harry was lucky to discover it in early stadium, but I’m afraid it’s too late for you.” What did he just say? “If you had come only three weeks ago we could’ve helped you…” He almost whispered. He was about to cry himself. I felt everything spin around. The dizziness occupied my head and I felt no longer human. “so…” I paused and cleared my throat. “What your saying is that…I’m gonna die?” I asked while holding back my sobs. “I’m afraid so…” He replied looking down. I felt my heart sink. “How long? How long have I got left?” I asked him while wiping another tear. Dr. Shepherd stared intensely at me. He bit his teeth together. “I’ll give you…maximum a month…” He said weakly. “A month?!” I raised my voice. F*cking hell. Only a month? I would’ve thought maybe a year or something, but a month…oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my god. Dr. Shepherd nodded his head and he gave me a look of shame. “I’m so sorry…” He suddenly said and wiped one tear of his. God. “It’s…not your fault. Thanks for telling me.” I told him and swallowed loudly. “Can I go now?” I asked weakly and tried really hard to fight back the tears. The doctor nodded his head and I went out of his office. I walked to find the others, but I suddenly forgot where the waiting room was. I felt helpless. “Alex…” I heard Danny’s voice behind me and turned around to accept his hug as I broke down into hysterical sobs.
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Post by Kristin( : on Nov 5, 2006 15:17:13 GMT 1
Seriøst... *WRÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆÆHH* begynte nesten å grine nå =S
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Post by Cydonia on Nov 6, 2006 19:31:49 GMT 1
OMG
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Post by Julie:) on Nov 6, 2006 22:42:31 GMT 1
Nest siste nå dere....
22.
Everyone knew about my condition now. Even the press. It was Danny who’d confirmed it infront of them, I’d told him to. He was the one who handled the situation most badly. Of course, Harry was devastated, but Danny… When I was gone, he had no family left. I felt so sorry for him. And Harry, my lovely boyfriend. And my poor baby Nick. Oh god, this was so hard for me. I didn’t know how to handle it. What should I do? I wanted to everything before I left this place. To see everything, to travel. But a month was too short, and sadly I got weaker every day. Harry kept telling me he could never forgive himself for not telling me about him sooner. I said that there’s nothing he could do about it now, but he just burst out crying every time I said that. Nick didn’t know a thing about the situation. None of us had cried infront of him, I didn’t want him to know. I mean, not that he would understand much if I tried telling him, but for god’s sake. He was two. He’d probably forget everything about me anyway. I had fixed everything with all mother stuff. When I was gone Nick was gonna stay with his dad, and his uncle Danny. I just hoped no one thought they were a gay couple…oh well it didn’t matter. I actually found out some days ago that our dad had died four years ago. He had killed himself with a trigger. “Mummy?” Nick asked while he lay next to me on the sofa. My body had let me down now. I could nothing but lie down and rest. I felt dead already. “Yes, honey?” I said and cuddled him up to me. “I lov yuu mummy!” He said and gave me one of the biggest smiles. I tried really hard not to cry. “Aww, I love you too, baby!” I said and kissed his forehead. He giggled while I did so. Nick got up and walked out of the livingroom and upstairs. I sighed to myself while switching channel on the TV. I stopped at a channel where they showed a film with Clint Eastwood and I thought of Harry. Suddenly he walked into the room. “Hello my beautiful!” Harry said happily. I knew he tried forgetting it all and cheer me up. “Heyy!” I said and gave him a smile. He walked over and kissed me. Long, hard and soft. We made out for a while then suddenly I pulled away. “Thank you.” Harry said. “I enjoyed that!” He giggled while tickling me. I laughed slightly. “I’m gonna miss you, you know…” I suddenly said while looking at him. I didn’t know where I was going when I died but I knew one thing for sure and that was that I was gonna miss everyone I cared about. A lot. “Alex…please. You promised not to talk about it.” Harry whispered trying not to let the tears flow. “Well Harry, you promised me everything was gonna be alright, didn’t you?” I suddenly let out with anger in my voice. Harry’s big blue eyes stared deeply into my own. “I’m so sorry…” He said and began to cry. See now what you’ve done, Al, I thought to myself. I didn’t mean it that way, I just… I was just so scared of everything. The fact that I was going to die. Leaving all the people I loved. My boyfriend, my son, my dear brother, all my friends, my pupils. Everyone. “No, I’m sorry, Harry. I didn’t mean to say that. I got scared. That’s all. Forget about what I said, ok?” I said and gave him a gentle kiss which he returned. “Ok…” He whispered while I wiped his tears. “I love you so much, Harry. Don’t you ever forget that!” I told him while looking into his gorgeous eyes which now were all watery again. “Don’t cry…” I simply whispered. “I love you more, Al. I love you so much more! You have no idea how much I love you, Alex. I love you more than life itself.” Harry said while tears rolled slowly down his soft cheeks. I gave him a weak smile. “Promise me one thing, baby…” I paused and cleared my throat. “Everything for you, my dearest love…” Harry whispered. I smiled. “Take good care of Nick. Promise me to mention me every day. I don’t want my son to forget me. Show him pictures, home-videos. Please would you do that for me?” I asked him while squeezing his hand. Harry looked at me. “Al, that’s the least I could do for you. If it was up to me I’d give you life back…” “I know, harry…I know…” I whispered.
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Post by Kristin( : on Nov 7, 2006 17:10:29 GMT 1
Gooodiiiie:)
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Post by Cydonia on Nov 7, 2006 19:55:41 GMT 1
eeeeeek!
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Post by Julie:) on Nov 8, 2006 22:25:35 GMT 1
LAST PART INNIT. 23.
Three weeks had now passed since they diagnosed me. I was now in hospital. Been there for like…three days or something, I couldn’t remember. Everyone had gone out shopping some food except for Danny, he stayed by my side. He’d done that since I got here. Like Harry. Only Harry needed to go home every now and then to Nick. Danny held my hand and stroked it lightly. He started to sing. “…would you know my naamee, If I saw you in heaven?” I loved Danny’s voice. It made me relax. I’ve always loved it. Since I was a little girl. I knew this was one of my last days. I had said my good byes to Nick. I didn’t want him to see me like this. It was too hard. That day was devastating. He just looked at me like I was stupid and didn’t quite understand why I cried when I said good bye. Made me cry just to think of it. Danny would always be next to me and talk to me. He didn’t want me to go. I didn’t want either, but now I couldn’t care less really. I thought it would be much better to die than be like this. It was hard for me to see all the people I loved crying over me, I couldn’t take it anymore. “…I must be strong and carry on…cause I know…I don’t belong…here in heaven…”Danny continued singing Eric Clapton. I closed my eyes. I felt all relaxed. “Al? Alex?” He stopped singing. I opened my eyes and looked at his watery eyes. Aw, poor thing. “Please don’t! Stay awake! Wait till Harry gets back, ok?” He asked me while tears rolled down his cheeks. I wiped them for him and kissed his hand. I loved him so much. You’d never know how much I loved my big brother. He had always been there for me and I knew he loved me too. The connection we had was amazing. I had never met any other siblings who had the same relationship as me and Danny. But in our case it was special, I guess. We lost our parents in an early age. “Al?” Danny asked once more, still crying. “Yes, Dan?” I answered looking right into his crystal blue eyes. They were so beautiful when he cried. They were all shiny and nice. “I love you…you know that, don’t you?” He asked me and sniffed. I nodded my head. “I know, Danny. I hope you know that I love you just as much! I’ll always be with you whatever happens. I’ll be right here.” I told him and placed my hand where his heart was. He placed his hand on top of mine and gave me the famous Danny-smile. “I’ve written you a song…” Danny suddenly said. I looked up at him. “You have?” I asked surprised. He nodded his haid. “It’s sort of a sequel to mum’s song. I decided to name this “My little Angel.” He explained while crying. The tears fell slowly down my face. “Thank you, Danny. Will you please sing it in my funeral?” I asked him while he wiped my tears. He let out a sob. “Of course I will, Alex. Of course!” He cried and bent down to kiss my cheek. I smiled weakly as a ‘thank you’. “And Al…one more thing…” He paused and wiped some tears. “…will you please tell mum hello and say that I really, really miss her and I love her so much!” He begged me. “Of course I will, Ratleg!” I slightly laughed. He squeezed my hand tight. “And I’m sure it’ll not be long till I see you again!” He said and gave me a smile. “Shut up Danny! I know you’ll have a long and happy life, but promise me one thing…” I said. “… don’t you ever forget about me, ok?” I asked while some tears rolled slowly down my cheeks. Danny cried even more. “You think I’m stupid?” He asked me. “I’ll never ever, ever forget you my dear sister. You’re the only one I’ve got, you’ve been so close to me and I love you more than anything!” Danny cried. I cried as well. I felt so tired now and closed my eyes again. “Alex…” he sobbed. “…Harry’s not here yet.” “I know…” I whispered. Please Harry, hurry up, I thought to myself. I wasn’t gonna last any longer now.
Suddenly Harry stormed into my room. Danny had obviously texted him. “Baby? Al? Alex!” He almost screamed. “Shuddup!” I smiled. “Thank god!” Harry sighed with relief. I could tell he was shaking, cause his voice was really weird. “Harry…” I paused. “Yeah!” He answered right away. “I think I’m gonna leave you all to it now…I’m tired.” I said. Harry nodded while wiping his tears. “Remember everything I told you boys…” I sighed. “I love you…” I’d said my final words. My eyes were closed and I held each boy in each hand. I was just waiting now. Finally, mum! Finally! We’ll have so much fun. And I’ll tell you all about your grandson. He’s a legend. Here I come mum, here I come… “I love you, Al, I love you so much!” Danny cried out loud. “Goodbye…goodbye m’love…” Harry said and that was the last thing I heard before I left this beautiful place.
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Post by Cydonia on Nov 9, 2006 15:00:30 GMT 1
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