Post by mattass on Oct 5, 2005 11:53:06 GMT 1
During the tour i was a mess, i started cutting myself again and i stopped eating. I only ate my breakfast and found an excuse when they asked if i wanted to join em for dinner. They knew why, but didnt say anything. I was thankful for that. They just didnt want to upset me i guess. Danny sometimes tried to talk to me, i shrugged and then left the room. One time i heard Danny and Tom talking about me. They had thought about forcing me to put myself into some recovery hospital... i dunno.
"You coming dougie?" asked Harry, we were minutes away from finishing off our tour in London. Wembley was packed with fans.
"Yeah in a second" i said and tried to get up. I was so dizzy, i hadnt gotten so much food in me for 3 months. My weight had dropped many pounds, my mom was worried. So was Maria, but i managed somehow to convince them that i was fine.
I got myself out on stage with the other boys. I dunno how the heck i did it but somehow i got out there.
Danny sent me a concerned look. I didnt like it.
We sang the first three songs. I wanna hold you, I`ll be okay and Obviously. And then it happend, i somehow stepped on a slippery part of the stage and fell.
I hit my head on a speaker and blacked out.
Thats when Heather appeared, she didnt smile this time. I took her hand and smiled, at some point i thought i had died but when someone threw cold water over me and i woke up i knew i hadnt. Tom sat beside me, fans were yelling for them to tell if i was okay. Our doctor who was following us on tour came out on stage. She helped me up and backstage. I heard Danny say:
"We will continue without our beloved dougie tonight, he is sorry for not being able to be on stage now, but he needs to get checked up with our doctor"
The guys came backstage 1 hour later and sat down beside me, i didnt look at them. My food problem were about to be brought up.
"We are worried about you dougie" said Harry.
"I know you are"
"We know your not eating, so just please now, eat a big snack, or else i will force it down your throat man" said Tom. I looked up, i was shocked in the way he spoke to me. It was never like that. I guess this was different. Danny sent Tom a very impressed look and smiled.
"I agree" said Danny.
"Me 2" mumbled Harry.
"Fine" i mumbled and tried to get up.
"No, stay down, rest" said Tom and pushed me down. He went out the door and minutes later he came back with a burger, chips, chocolate, ice cream and soda.
"You gonna force all that down his throat?" asked Harry in an awe.
"Yep, bite by bite, its all going down"
"Damn, i really feel sorry for you pugsley" said harry and looked at me. Danny helped me up and Tom placed all of the food infront of me and smiled.
"Eat, we are gonna sit here til its all down" mumbled Tom.
"What if i blow before that?" i asked.
"Dont worry, we`ll glue you back together" said Danny with a smile.
I ate the burger and felt a bit better, the soda went down pretty well. But when i got to the chips i wasnt so happy, i was so full.
They smiled when i finished the chocolate.
5 days later i was at the supermarket when a woman i walked past said something i rushed to the doctor for afterwards.
"Yeah. He is adopted. A girl named Heather actually, the one whos dating Dougie poynter from mcfly, it was her son"
I stopped dead in my tracks.
"Heather? Son? What?" i said to myself.
I dropped my things and rushed for the excit. What the hell was going on? First they say she was pregnant then i heard some woman had adopted my son.
When i was unlocking my car i remembered something. Not so many months ago she had returned from a nine month stay in the states. Did she give birth to him then?
I drove to the doctor:
"Lemme see doctor Baldwin"
"Does he expect you?" the women behind the desk asked.
"No, but im Dougie, poynter, if you dont allow me to see him now i will sue you for every dollar, penny and buck you have"
"Alright go in"
I opend the door and looked at the doctor. He looked shocked when he saw me. Slamming the door he jumped in the chair.
"We are gonna talk" I said and sat down.
"but i have a surg-" "I dont give a damn, the person can sue me"
"I heard a chick at the supermarket. She had adopted a son from Heather ... lemme quote her: Who dated Dougie poynter from Mcfly,it was her son...Now put the damn phone down and tell me the truth"
"Alright, you got a right to know the truth, she found out that she was pregnant right before summer, around May, and came to me, i set up a thing so she could go to her uncle in california and stay there, then give birth to her son and when she came back then give him to this women you heard at the supermarket, she never said a thing to you because she was afraid that she would lose you"
"Since i didnt know about this... i can take my son away from this women?"
"Yes, since you didnt know about it"
"I wanna do it, this is my son and im the only one left of us, since this is the only memory of her"
"I`ll contact the agency and the mother and set up a meeting"
The meeting ended and i went outside, Harry who had gone to the store with me sat shocked in a chair and looked at his nails.
"Come on"
"So you have a son" he said as we were looking for my car.
"Turns out yeah"
The guys took it like Harry and I, shocked like hell. But when they keep it a secret that I in the first place had a alive son it was kinda hard to say: YAY! And break out in a happy dance.
"So your gonna fight to take him back?" asked Tom.
"Yeah, im gonna explain it to this couple who adopted him, i hope they understand"
2 days later i sat in a meeting room at the agency waiting for this couple, after 10 minutes a women and a guy walked in.... with my son.... !
"Whats his name?" i asked, tears were swelling up in my eyes and i blinked to see clearly.
"Sam" said the women.
"You heard about it didnt you? So you wanna have him back, we understand" said the guy.
"You do?" i asked.
"Yeah. The doctor who contacted us told us you didnt know she gave your son up, so since you want to be his parent, you and no one else we wanna give Jamie back"
"You dont know how thankful i am"
"You lost your girlfriend in a tragice accident, so having memories is one thing... but having the result of your love for each other is another thing"
The women from the agency who had been helping the couple out with the whole adoption smiled.
"You can take him home today"
I dropped my hands(yeah i know it sounds weird) in a shock and hit em on the table. She smirked when she saw my reaction.
"Why? What? How?"
"Since the couple says they wanna give him back you are allowed to take him home now, but you gotta do some paperworks together with the couple first"
"Okay" i said with a smile.
2 hours later.
"Alright. Sam, go to your r-e-a-l daddy now" said the chick and gave me sam.
"Thanks, we`re gonna come by and visit you, and you can come anytime you want" i said and gave them my adress.
As i left the building i couldnt help to smile. I was carrying my son now, my son.
I called Tom as i buckled up Sam in the car.
-Hey.
-Hey dude. How did it go?
-Call the rest of the guys and go to my flat.
-Why?
-Just do it.
-Alright. See you in 20 minutes.
When i locked my way in i saw the guys, they looked at me and then saw Sam.
"Woaw dude, you got him" said Danny and ran up.
"Yeah i did" i said crying.
"What is it? Did he do some scoopy do in his pants?" asked Danny with a grin.
"No. Im just happy that i got him back, i cant believe im holding my own son"
"Aww Dougie, its just cool, you were lucky man, really lucky" said Tom and hugged me.
"Can i hold him?" asked Harry.
"Yep, here" i said and Harry took him.
"Whats his name?" asked Danny.
"Well the couple named him Sam, so i am saying Sam Poynter"
They all smiled and played with him.
He wasnt so many months old actually, 4 months old. So when Tom brought something up i couldnt help but laugh.
"Clothes, toys, and a bed, you need that.."
I laughed and in the next second we headed out the door to go shopping. I called Maria on the way to the mall:
-Hey Maria.
-Hey Dougie.Hows things going?
-Well the guys, me and Sam are going shopping. So im having a blast.
-What? How did you find out about Sam?
-I heard the women who adopted him blabber about it at the market 2 days ago. I got him back.
-Oh my god, thats so great Dougie. I was hoping you would find out soon. I wasnt allowed to tell you about it. There was so many times i wanted to.
-Its okay, wanna go shopping with us?
-Sure. I`ll call you when ive reached the mall.
-Alright. See ya then. Byebye.
-bye.
Tom wanted to carry him so Harry, Danny and I went mental in the clothing store, they even paid for half of it.
When i tried to pay for it myself they brushed me away and said:
"Your the daddy, you not pay jellybean ass"
I looked at them and hmfed. Not long after that Maria called and popped up at the store. She went straight over to me and hugged me before she tracked down Tom with Sam and demanded to carry him. For the first time in months i was happy, i smiled and cheered.
"Your finally happy" whispered Danny when Maria and Tom were trying to convince each other on a bed.
"I am, and i enjoy it" i said with a smile.
"Good, its great to see you happy again"
A few hourse later i took a better grip around Sam and opend the door. It was good to be home, the guys carried inside the bed thingy to set it up. Maria and i put up some thingy where he could play when he was in the living room. I put a pillow down in it some toys and then him.
Maria and i went upstairs to see if we could help the boys, it was a complete mess in my room. Parts everwhere, the guys were spread out to. And they were discussing the bed.
"Oh shut up Harry... its not gonna go there... you want him to sleep upside down...We are talking about a famous kid now... " said Danny and slapped Harry.
"Ow, that hurts...stupid ass" Harry mumbled under his breath.
"Hows it going?" i asked.
"Good" said Tom with a part on his head, his tongue out of his mouth and his eyes fixed on the under part of the bed. While he was trying to put it together.
"Alright"
We stepped outside the room.
"Nooo..It fell apart..Darn 2" i heard Tom yelled.
"You think we should call Jamie?" i asked, i was referring to the guy Maria was married to.
"Naah, we give them 2 hours.. and then we call Jamie" she said with a grin and walked downstairs.
"Fair" i mumbled to myself and followed her. Downstairs i sat down and saw Sam sleeping in his little ``flat``.
Maria came out to me from the kitchen and sat down. I knew she was unhappy that i didnt find out about him after 4 months.
"Im sorry Dougie" she said.
"Its okay Maria"
"I hope so, it killed me that i couldnt tell you.."
"I know about him now, and you told me the truth its enough"
"DOUGIE" yelled Danny and appeared at the stairs, Sam woke up crying.
"Aw man sorry, i forgot...darn.. i gotta get used to it... well anyways.. come see" he said. We walked upstairs again and saw the bed, it was done.
I pulled Sam around from my shoulder and he could see the bed. From now i had to be prepared, sleepless nights and alot of crying.
What more could i ask for? Danny took Sam and put him down in his bed. Maria headed for my closet to clear way for Sam`s clothes.
"Dougie... do you like... no wait.. love to shop clothes?" she asked when she first saw my closet.
"Yeah.. kinda.." i mumbled with a little smirk on my face.
"I can see that"
She cleared way for his HUGE pile of clothes. Harry had bought him one pile, Tom one BIG pile. I dont even have to tell you about Dannys. If he had bought more i must have bought another car to get the rest with me.
"You coming dougie?" asked Harry, we were minutes away from finishing off our tour in London. Wembley was packed with fans.
"Yeah in a second" i said and tried to get up. I was so dizzy, i hadnt gotten so much food in me for 3 months. My weight had dropped many pounds, my mom was worried. So was Maria, but i managed somehow to convince them that i was fine.
I got myself out on stage with the other boys. I dunno how the heck i did it but somehow i got out there.
Danny sent me a concerned look. I didnt like it.
We sang the first three songs. I wanna hold you, I`ll be okay and Obviously. And then it happend, i somehow stepped on a slippery part of the stage and fell.
I hit my head on a speaker and blacked out.
Thats when Heather appeared, she didnt smile this time. I took her hand and smiled, at some point i thought i had died but when someone threw cold water over me and i woke up i knew i hadnt. Tom sat beside me, fans were yelling for them to tell if i was okay. Our doctor who was following us on tour came out on stage. She helped me up and backstage. I heard Danny say:
"We will continue without our beloved dougie tonight, he is sorry for not being able to be on stage now, but he needs to get checked up with our doctor"
The guys came backstage 1 hour later and sat down beside me, i didnt look at them. My food problem were about to be brought up.
"We are worried about you dougie" said Harry.
"I know you are"
"We know your not eating, so just please now, eat a big snack, or else i will force it down your throat man" said Tom. I looked up, i was shocked in the way he spoke to me. It was never like that. I guess this was different. Danny sent Tom a very impressed look and smiled.
"I agree" said Danny.
"Me 2" mumbled Harry.
"Fine" i mumbled and tried to get up.
"No, stay down, rest" said Tom and pushed me down. He went out the door and minutes later he came back with a burger, chips, chocolate, ice cream and soda.
"You gonna force all that down his throat?" asked Harry in an awe.
"Yep, bite by bite, its all going down"
"Damn, i really feel sorry for you pugsley" said harry and looked at me. Danny helped me up and Tom placed all of the food infront of me and smiled.
"Eat, we are gonna sit here til its all down" mumbled Tom.
"What if i blow before that?" i asked.
"Dont worry, we`ll glue you back together" said Danny with a smile.
I ate the burger and felt a bit better, the soda went down pretty well. But when i got to the chips i wasnt so happy, i was so full.
They smiled when i finished the chocolate.
5 days later i was at the supermarket when a woman i walked past said something i rushed to the doctor for afterwards.
"Yeah. He is adopted. A girl named Heather actually, the one whos dating Dougie poynter from mcfly, it was her son"
I stopped dead in my tracks.
"Heather? Son? What?" i said to myself.
I dropped my things and rushed for the excit. What the hell was going on? First they say she was pregnant then i heard some woman had adopted my son.
When i was unlocking my car i remembered something. Not so many months ago she had returned from a nine month stay in the states. Did she give birth to him then?
I drove to the doctor:
"Lemme see doctor Baldwin"
"Does he expect you?" the women behind the desk asked.
"No, but im Dougie, poynter, if you dont allow me to see him now i will sue you for every dollar, penny and buck you have"
"Alright go in"
I opend the door and looked at the doctor. He looked shocked when he saw me. Slamming the door he jumped in the chair.
"We are gonna talk" I said and sat down.
"but i have a surg-" "I dont give a damn, the person can sue me"
"I heard a chick at the supermarket. She had adopted a son from Heather ... lemme quote her: Who dated Dougie poynter from Mcfly,it was her son...Now put the damn phone down and tell me the truth"
"Alright, you got a right to know the truth, she found out that she was pregnant right before summer, around May, and came to me, i set up a thing so she could go to her uncle in california and stay there, then give birth to her son and when she came back then give him to this women you heard at the supermarket, she never said a thing to you because she was afraid that she would lose you"
"Since i didnt know about this... i can take my son away from this women?"
"Yes, since you didnt know about it"
"I wanna do it, this is my son and im the only one left of us, since this is the only memory of her"
"I`ll contact the agency and the mother and set up a meeting"
The meeting ended and i went outside, Harry who had gone to the store with me sat shocked in a chair and looked at his nails.
"Come on"
"So you have a son" he said as we were looking for my car.
"Turns out yeah"
The guys took it like Harry and I, shocked like hell. But when they keep it a secret that I in the first place had a alive son it was kinda hard to say: YAY! And break out in a happy dance.
"So your gonna fight to take him back?" asked Tom.
"Yeah, im gonna explain it to this couple who adopted him, i hope they understand"
2 days later i sat in a meeting room at the agency waiting for this couple, after 10 minutes a women and a guy walked in.... with my son.... !
"Whats his name?" i asked, tears were swelling up in my eyes and i blinked to see clearly.
"Sam" said the women.
"You heard about it didnt you? So you wanna have him back, we understand" said the guy.
"You do?" i asked.
"Yeah. The doctor who contacted us told us you didnt know she gave your son up, so since you want to be his parent, you and no one else we wanna give Jamie back"
"You dont know how thankful i am"
"You lost your girlfriend in a tragice accident, so having memories is one thing... but having the result of your love for each other is another thing"
The women from the agency who had been helping the couple out with the whole adoption smiled.
"You can take him home today"
I dropped my hands(yeah i know it sounds weird) in a shock and hit em on the table. She smirked when she saw my reaction.
"Why? What? How?"
"Since the couple says they wanna give him back you are allowed to take him home now, but you gotta do some paperworks together with the couple first"
"Okay" i said with a smile.
2 hours later.
"Alright. Sam, go to your r-e-a-l daddy now" said the chick and gave me sam.
"Thanks, we`re gonna come by and visit you, and you can come anytime you want" i said and gave them my adress.
As i left the building i couldnt help to smile. I was carrying my son now, my son.
I called Tom as i buckled up Sam in the car.
-Hey.
-Hey dude. How did it go?
-Call the rest of the guys and go to my flat.
-Why?
-Just do it.
-Alright. See you in 20 minutes.
When i locked my way in i saw the guys, they looked at me and then saw Sam.
"Woaw dude, you got him" said Danny and ran up.
"Yeah i did" i said crying.
"What is it? Did he do some scoopy do in his pants?" asked Danny with a grin.
"No. Im just happy that i got him back, i cant believe im holding my own son"
"Aww Dougie, its just cool, you were lucky man, really lucky" said Tom and hugged me.
"Can i hold him?" asked Harry.
"Yep, here" i said and Harry took him.
"Whats his name?" asked Danny.
"Well the couple named him Sam, so i am saying Sam Poynter"
They all smiled and played with him.
He wasnt so many months old actually, 4 months old. So when Tom brought something up i couldnt help but laugh.
"Clothes, toys, and a bed, you need that.."
I laughed and in the next second we headed out the door to go shopping. I called Maria on the way to the mall:
-Hey Maria.
-Hey Dougie.Hows things going?
-Well the guys, me and Sam are going shopping. So im having a blast.
-What? How did you find out about Sam?
-I heard the women who adopted him blabber about it at the market 2 days ago. I got him back.
-Oh my god, thats so great Dougie. I was hoping you would find out soon. I wasnt allowed to tell you about it. There was so many times i wanted to.
-Its okay, wanna go shopping with us?
-Sure. I`ll call you when ive reached the mall.
-Alright. See ya then. Byebye.
-bye.
Tom wanted to carry him so Harry, Danny and I went mental in the clothing store, they even paid for half of it.
When i tried to pay for it myself they brushed me away and said:
"Your the daddy, you not pay jellybean ass"
I looked at them and hmfed. Not long after that Maria called and popped up at the store. She went straight over to me and hugged me before she tracked down Tom with Sam and demanded to carry him. For the first time in months i was happy, i smiled and cheered.
"Your finally happy" whispered Danny when Maria and Tom were trying to convince each other on a bed.
"I am, and i enjoy it" i said with a smile.
"Good, its great to see you happy again"
A few hourse later i took a better grip around Sam and opend the door. It was good to be home, the guys carried inside the bed thingy to set it up. Maria and i put up some thingy where he could play when he was in the living room. I put a pillow down in it some toys and then him.
Maria and i went upstairs to see if we could help the boys, it was a complete mess in my room. Parts everwhere, the guys were spread out to. And they were discussing the bed.
"Oh shut up Harry... its not gonna go there... you want him to sleep upside down...We are talking about a famous kid now... " said Danny and slapped Harry.
"Ow, that hurts...stupid ass" Harry mumbled under his breath.
"Hows it going?" i asked.
"Good" said Tom with a part on his head, his tongue out of his mouth and his eyes fixed on the under part of the bed. While he was trying to put it together.
"Alright"
We stepped outside the room.
"Nooo..It fell apart..Darn 2" i heard Tom yelled.
"You think we should call Jamie?" i asked, i was referring to the guy Maria was married to.
"Naah, we give them 2 hours.. and then we call Jamie" she said with a grin and walked downstairs.
"Fair" i mumbled to myself and followed her. Downstairs i sat down and saw Sam sleeping in his little ``flat``.
Maria came out to me from the kitchen and sat down. I knew she was unhappy that i didnt find out about him after 4 months.
"Im sorry Dougie" she said.
"Its okay Maria"
"I hope so, it killed me that i couldnt tell you.."
"I know about him now, and you told me the truth its enough"
"DOUGIE" yelled Danny and appeared at the stairs, Sam woke up crying.
"Aw man sorry, i forgot...darn.. i gotta get used to it... well anyways.. come see" he said. We walked upstairs again and saw the bed, it was done.
I pulled Sam around from my shoulder and he could see the bed. From now i had to be prepared, sleepless nights and alot of crying.
What more could i ask for? Danny took Sam and put him down in his bed. Maria headed for my closet to clear way for Sam`s clothes.
"Dougie... do you like... no wait.. love to shop clothes?" she asked when she first saw my closet.
"Yeah.. kinda.." i mumbled with a little smirk on my face.
"I can see that"
She cleared way for his HUGE pile of clothes. Harry had bought him one pile, Tom one BIG pile. I dont even have to tell you about Dannys. If he had bought more i must have bought another car to get the rest with me.