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Post by mattass on Sept 28, 2005 11:01:36 GMT 1
Har skrivekløe assa.. og begynte på den i går for æ kjeda meg og va...vel......deppa.. "Im sorry what?" i asked and looked at the doctor. "She died a few minutes ago, im sorry... We did everything we could" My life crashed at those very hard words, as everything went blurry i fell to the ground and everything went black. When i woke up again james was looking at me. I looked at him before those tears ive kept inside for the past 6 months came floading. Heather was my life, my world, my everything and as that car 2 weeks ago hit her right infront of me i had nothing left. What was i supposed to do now? How was i supposed to tell her parents. James helped me up to a chair and to her bed. He tried to smile it didnt work. He ended up in tears. Heather was his bestfriend. Seconds later Matt and Danny walked in. Yeah who of those boys am i? Its me, dougie. Dougie without no life now poynter. What the hell was i supposed to do now? She was gone.
-Flashback-
"Hey dougie baby" said Heather and climbed the tree. I looked at her and smiled. "Hey Baby" I said. We sat there at our secret spot in the woods not so far away from the mcfly cabin Yeah Mcfly has a cabin, a few miles outside of Liverpool. The only ones that knew about the secret place was me and Heather. We had found it 4 years ago when we first started dating. Now for 4 years Heather and i had been a couple, i was so in love with her. "I love you heather, its gonna be us two together forever baby" i said and kissed her. "Forever dougie, us forever" she said and rested her head on my shoulder as we looked at the sunset.
-Present day -
I looked at her body, lifeless on the hospital bed. James was now on the bed crying while he hugged her, Danny saw her and turned around. Heather had been such a great girl, all the guys loved her, the fans. My parents.... oh my god my parents...! I walked outside the room and saw her mother coming towards me. She was smiling. No one told her? "Hey dougie" she said as i reached her. "Hey Maria.... ehm... i need to talk to you" I said. "Oh why?" "Lets sit down and talk..." We sat down and i slowly and carefully told her that Heather was dead, Danny and James came outside. She saw James` red and swollen eyes and ran over. Danny and James held her so she woulndt run inside. "Let me go boys, i need to see my daughter i need to.." she said, her voice cracked and she fell to the ground. James sat down with her and hugged her. "We are all here for you Maria" he said and rubbed her back. Danny came over to me, he sat down and put a hand on my back. "How are you doug?" he asked and bent down so he could see my face. "Honestly?" "Yes?" "I wanna put a gun to my head and pull the trigger" "Dougie, that is not the right way.... now you need to think about what Heather wanted... " "Im not so sure anymore abot that" I said "She loved you with all her heart. She wanted you to be happy no matter what" "I know... its just so hard right now..." He didnt answer. I saw Tom coming towards us, with mom and dad right behind him, i froze. Mom saw Maria on the floor crying hugging James and she started crying as she ran over to me. "Im so sorry sweety, when did it happen?" "2 hours ago, she was even awake" "Oh god" Dad went over to James and Maria, he bent down. Maria looked at him with swollen red eyes. Dad and Maria was close. They had been friends since kindergarten. James got up and walked over to us, mom hugged him as she said she was sorry about Heather. He really cared about her a lot, they had been friends for a long time. And now that she was passed away, he had a hard time sorting out his emotions on this, he cared about her so munch. 2 days later i was in my room when the phone rang, i looked at it and smiled. James had been calling me 2 times a day. I giggled to myself and answered it. -Hey baby, miss me already? i said and chuckled. -Very Funny.. anways... i was calling cuz ive written a song about her...you wanna go down to the studio and record it with me? he asked. -Yeah, that would be awsome! I answered. -Nice. I`ll pick you up in 10 minutes. Be ready. -I will. Bye. - Bye dude. I took my phone and walked down stairs where i found my jacket, Danny sent me a weird look. "Got a date with James again?" asked Harry. "Yep. The boy just loves me to bits, i cant help it. Its just something about me" I said with a smirk. "Gee thats funny.. I cant remember that i said i missed you" said James who was standing in front of me now. "How the hell did you do that? I just talked to you on the phone?" I said. "Well i do just live 2 minutes away from you smartass" "Oh yeah" We went outside and jumped in the car. At the studio James showed me a copy of the song.I read it and smiled, he was such a darn good writer. No wonder we had so many hits with the songs James and the other lads had written. And then again girls thought we were hot and had great voices. Alright point is... James is one hell of a great writer. We stayed in the studio for the rest of the day recording, talking and laughing about some silly memories of us doing stupid silly things together with Heather. The after that day it was talked about the song. They all wanted to hear it. So James and i decided to release it. I was happy about the review on it. But then again it was just because James and i sang the song. James Busted/son of dork. And Dougie Mcfly.
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Post by atticus182 on Sept 28, 2005 16:14:46 GMT 1
Aww ..
Dakar lille Dougster'n ..
Veldig bra skrevet .. Mej å vil skrive så bra .. *Missunnelig*
Du må skrive mere .. ;D
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Post by mattass on Sept 28, 2005 18:24:40 GMT 1
Hehe.. nja.. vil ikke akkurat si at jeg skriver så særlig bra da ... Du er veldig flink til og skrive btw
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Post by Cydonia on Sept 28, 2005 18:30:34 GMT 1
Driit bra ;D litt trist oxo
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Post by mattass on Sept 28, 2005 18:51:21 GMT 1
well... I was depressed så da kommer det sånne folk dævver i ficcen historie ...
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Post by Cydonia on Sept 28, 2005 18:52:57 GMT 1
skjønner
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Post by Kristin( : on Sept 28, 2005 20:14:36 GMT 1
nice man!
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Post by mattass on Oct 1, 2005 21:03:14 GMT 1
Two day after the release i was on the couch sleeping dreaming about Heather. And then i just suddenly woke up, after 2 minutes of staring at the wall i found myself walking to the bathroom in my flat. I locked the door and found a sharp blade. I sat down resting my body on the wall. Looking up in the air i said: "I cant help it, im sorry Heather" and i drove it into my arm. Seeing the blood fload down got me in some sort of way happy. And lucky me, the doorbell rang. I quickly wiped the blood off. But something on to stop it and went to answer it. Danny, he stood there looking at me. "Hey man" "Hey" "Whats up?" he asked. "Oh nothing, im bored" "Oh cool, so am i, lets do something" "I dunno D, dont really feel like it" "You dinging jellybean ass, come on, all youve done since she died is to sleep, and stare at the wall listening to some sad ass music like girls aloud" "Gee how nice Danny" "Yeah i know, come on penny booh, we`re going to the movies, like this so we get run down by fans" He said and grabbed my arm pulling me out of the flat. I happily got to lock the door and take my jacket and we were off to the movies. My life went on after the death of heather, but it went on like a hell. I wasnt happy, i took a blade every day and drove into my arm. It was my way of pleasing myself. Cuz i just couldnt tell the others about my sorrow. The others didnt suspect a thing. Thank god.
I looked at the blade and then down on my arm. Just by looking i could count about 20 scars and i started 2 weeks ago. This time it had gotten abit out of hand. I looked at my wrist. The main vein(huske ikke ka hovedpulsåra hete....*flau*) and counted to 5 before i cut through the skin. A lot of blood, just too much. Danny walked into the bathroom and saw me. "Dougie you know we gotta....Oh my fucking god...god i knew something was going on.....No man... not now...God..What the hell are you doing man?" he yelled. "I.... I... I dont know.." I said before everything went black. When i woke up i was on the couch, with a doctor staring at me. Tom looked at me with a concerned look on his face. Harry was wiping some tears away from his face trying not to look so sad. When i saw Danny i got pissed off, he was on the phone with my mother. Tom bent down and tried to say something. "Dougie... why... why didnt you come to us? You know we really care about you. And that you are doing this is just.... i dont know what to call it.... but.. Ive talked to a shrink and he is gonna come by in 2 hours til then we are gonna stay with you, okay?" he asked. I nodded and looked at my wrist, it was covered in some sort of white bandage. The doctor left and i pulled my body up. Harry looked at me with this sad look, i just couldnt help what i did. I was unhappy, depressed, missed Heather so much and most of all i didnt want to live. 2 days later i was at the store when a fan walked up to me, she was crying. "I hope you are okay, we`ve heard you tried to kill yourself. I just wanted to tell you that the fans are supporting you all the way, we are so sorry about Heather" she said. "Thank you" i said, what she said really touched my heart. I sniffled and found what i needed before i went to pay for it. As i walked outside i noticed the spring creeping in over London. The weather was a bit warmer, people started to dress light, people were happy. Summer was just around the corner and that ment a nice time of vacations and loads of ice cream. Walking over to the car where Tom was waiting i found myself humming along some Nsync song. This i promise you! I missed Heather so much. Tom smiled when he saw me. "You are smiling, what made you put on a smile today?" he asked and opened the car door. "A fan said something to me, it just made me smile, all ive done for the past weeks is to think about me... i gotta stop" "No Dougie, youve lost someone that was special to you, and thinking about yourself is good, you get to sort out your feelings and you find your way around this but what did this fan say to you?" "That she hoped i was okay and that the fans support me all the way" "Thats nice, you know, i like our fans, they support us through the most, and now that youve lost your girlfriend it means you can turn your head to the fans, they will be backing you up all the way through this, which the guys and i are too" "I know" We went to my flat were he helped me carry the bags inside, i put the tv on and saw Backstreet boys perform Never gone on Trl, i looked at Tom. That song was really special to me. And most of all, it made me miss Heather so much more. That night i took the car to some shop where i bought flowers and drove to the graveyard. I found Heathers grave and put the flowers down. "I cant believe its been 2 months now.... it feels like i lost you just minutes ago... To be honest i just cant seem to get over you, i dont think i ever will... my life was about you, no one else and now that the reason i had for getting up in the morning is gone... just makes me wanna go to bed and never wake up again. But ive got a lot of fans out there who is counting on me. I guess i just gotta move on" "That was beautiful" said someone behind me. I turned around and there stood some girl i`d never seen before. "Thanks.... i was just talking to myself... in a way.." "You mean heather.... I knew her... Sort of.." "You did?" "Yeah. She was my bestfriend, back in kindergarten" "Nice" She put down some flowers and then walked away, i never saw her again.
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Post by Kristin( : on Oct 2, 2005 9:43:59 GMT 1
aaaaww....så trist *griner på dougie her*
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Post by mattass on Oct 3, 2005 13:50:42 GMT 1
Later on that day we had a concert at wembley. It started and then at the little 2 minute break we used to change, i talked to the guys: "Guys.." i said and coughed. "Yeah Doug?" asked Harry as he pulled his shirt off and pulled a new one on and then stepped into a shower of perfume. "Well... i got a song i wanna perform... is that okay?" i asked. "Yeah sure, what song?" asked Danny. "Never gone" i said. "Cool. You can do that now when we enter" said Tom. "Aiight, thanks" They werent needed to go on, i saw the lights be turned off and i took the guitar, a chair and walked out. As i pulled the guitar strap over my head the lights went on. "This song is called Never gone, the owner of it is the backstreet boys, hearing it reminds me of her, the love of my life, heather. So i wanna sing it"
The intro came on.
I looked down and then started:
I really miss you. There somethin that i gotta say.
The things we did The things we said Keep coming back to me and make me smile again You showed me how to face the truth Everything thats good in me I owe to you
Though the distance that's between us Now may seem to be too far It will never seperate us Deep inside I know you are
Never gone, never far In my heart is where you are Always close, everyday Every step along the way Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye I know you will be forever in my life (yeah) Never gone
No no no I walk alone these empty streets There is not a second you're not here with me The love you gave, the grace you've shown Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone
(Somehow) Somehow you found a way To see the best I have in me As long as time goes on I swear to you that you will be
Never gone, never far In my heart is where you are Always close (always close) Everyday (everyday) Every step along the way Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye I know you will be forever in my life (in my life yeah)
Never gone from me If there's one thing I believe (I believe) I will see you somewhere down the road again
Never gone, never far In my heart is where you are Always close (always close) Everyday (everyday) Every step along the way Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye (yeah yeah) I know you will be forever in my life (in my life)
Never gone, never far In my heart (in my heart is where) is where you are (you are) Always close, everyday Every step along the way
Never gone, never far In my heart is where you are
I looked at the crowd that stared back at me. "Thanks" i said smiling while i wiped the tears away. The guys came out on stage to me and smiled. "We all miss heather, she was one heck of a chick" said Harry. We did the rest of the show, i had nothing else in mind than getting home and sleep. Sleep the pain away. I was lost without her, and... i didnt wanna live. After the concert i faked sick and said i had to get home. Pulling the door shut at home i sank to the ground resting my body on the door. I was crying nonstop, "Why? Why heather?" I cried out and sulked. "Because god chose it" someone said. When i looked up i saw her standing infront of me. "Heather?" i asked shocked. "Yes" "God i miss you" i mumbled. "I miss you to baby" she said and touched my cheek. As she wiped the tears away i looked at her. Even though she was dead she was still beautiful. "I.. i cant take this anymore.." "Yes you can, youve got millions of people supporting you, your fans, you family, the guys, your friends, hold on dougie, we werent ment to" "No. We were, i love you so much" "I love you too honey" "Please come back" "I cant, this was ment to happen" Suddenly someone pounded on the door, heather disappeared. "Man" i mumbled and got up. I opend and there stood Tom, he smiled but the smile took off when he saw the red swollen eyes i had. "Did something happen doug?" he asked. "Heather was here" "What? Heather? You are kiddin? i mean.. she cant... she is dead" "Her spirit" "Aw. I see" "Yeah" That night i dreamed about her, she was still alive. It was so good to see her in the dream, touching her skin, kissing her, feeling her. So when i woke up 6.50 in the morning and couldnt sleep i swore i was gonna kick gods ass when i died. I got on the computer and went on our website. Chatting with some people(not as me) it got me feeling better. There was one girl i gave my e-mail adress to. Around 8 i went downstairs to get something to eat. While i was chewing on a pancake Danny called. -Well hello there sunshine. Whats up? Missed me? -Funny. Im eating breakfast. -You are? ME 2!!! -Yeah.Call bbc. Big news. -Oh baby i will. Whats the number? -Stop calling me baby. -You are my baby. Ive missed you sweet thang. -Your twisted. -You`ve noticed? -The first time i saw you. -Same here. -Alright pumpkin. Why did you call? -Oh baby, you did miss me. Can i come over? I wanna hold you, kiss you, feel you, sniff you. Do you. -Yuck. -You`ve hurt my feelings Dougie. Its over. -Already? -Yeah. *sniffle* I couldnt help but laugh. -YAY! You laughed. -Well your twisted Daniel. -I know. Well i was calling cuz Harry and i are going to the mall in 2 hours. Wanna go? -Aiight. I`ll meet you guys at the entrence. -Cool. See ya mate. Bye. -Bye.
I put the cap on and stepped out of the car. Looking around i saw Harry and Danny chatting by the entrence walking over Danny spotted me. He started jumping up and down waving his hands. "Honeeeey im here..." he yelled. Harry sent him a weird look and hit him. "Sheesh. Party pooper..." said Danny and held a hand on his stomach. "Yeah i know" I walked up to them and Danny threw his arms around my shoulder kissing my cheek. "Hey baby" he said and grinned. "Wacko" "Whaaat?" We walked inside and did our thing, shopping. Actually guys do like it, we are not gay btw. And you know that. Shopping is fun when you money. Walking there it reminded me of Heathers mother, it was her birthday today. "Its Marias birthday today, i gotta find something awsome to her" "I think for her knowing you are still around works for her" said Danny. "probably... but .. I just wanna give her something really cool... she deserve it" "Yeah, come on" Said Harry and we walked into some jewlery store. I found a necklace at the prize of one million. I could afford it so why not. Walking up to the front door to the house, the same house Heather had lived in until she died.
-Flashback- "Hey baby" said Heather as she opend the door. My jaw dropped seing her in the blue/green-ish dress she was wearing. She took the flowers and kissed me. "Ive missed you" I said. "Ive missed you too much" she said and hugged me. Maria stood behind her and smiled. I took Heathers hand and led her down to the limo.
-Present Day- Maria opend the door. "Happy birthday Maria" i said and gave her the flowers. "Aw Dougie honey, thank you" she said and opend the door so i could step in. Sitting down on the couch i could feel the presence of Heather. Maria sat down in a chair at my right side. "Ive got something else, as a little make up thing for that i havent been around so much lately and a way of saying that i will always be there for you, David and Tina" I said and pulled out the box. As she opend it she lost her breath. "How much did it cost?" she asked. "That doesnt matter" "How much did it cost?" "One million" "Are you nuts?" "No, i care, and its your birthday" Tina ran into the living room, she smiled when she saw me. I hadnt seen her in a month. "Hey there" i said and hugged her as she threw her arms around me. "Dougie" she shrieked and grinned as she pulled away. "Are you gonna stay for dinner and the party?" "If you guys want me to" "Yes, we do" said Maria with tears in her eyes. I blinked trying to hide mine and smiled. "Alright, im gonna stay" Tina jumped around happy, to be 4 years old she seemed to be a very grown up kiddo.
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Post by Kristin( : on Oct 3, 2005 16:08:22 GMT 1
moooore giiiiiimme mooooore babe!!! ;D
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Post by mattass on Oct 3, 2005 16:19:12 GMT 1
hehe
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Post by mattass on Oct 4, 2005 16:51:03 GMT 1
The next day i woke up to a call from the hospital. Why the hell one month after would they call about that? Telling me one friggin month later after she died? Why not that day? - Hello. -Douglas Poynter? -Yes. -Hi. Im sorry to call this early, but we tried to reach you a few times before but you wouldnt answer the phone. -Alright. Why did you try to reach me? - Because the day of Heathers death. I was gonna inform you about something but i somehow forgot in all this. -Aiight. About what? -Heathers pregnancy. I lost all touch with the world then. -What? -Yes. She was two months pregnant. -Your joking right? -No. Im not joking. -Two months pregnant?
6 hours later James came jumping into my flat smiling. His jaw dropped when he saw me. "What is it?" he asked. "The hospital called me" i answered. "Oh?" "Heather was pregnant" "What?" "Yeah, i said the same thing" He sat down on the couch next to me. I didnt know what to say, what to do. She had been pregnant with my kid, i was going to be a father. And now a month later i had found out. James didnt say a word for one hour. "Well... " he mumbled suddenly. "Hmm..." There was a knock on the door, it was Tom,he grinned and then walked inside looking at us. "Did Danny break up with you?" he asked me with a chuckle. "No, Heather was pregnant, two months pregnant" "Im sorry what?" "She was pregnant" The rest of the week i walked around in my own world. I just couldnt seem to get it out of my head, Heather had been pregnant and never told me. But then again... she had called that night it happend, she got hit by a car and seened pretty upset. "She was gonna tell me about the baby" I said one day during breakfast at a hotel in Dublin. Danny looked at me. "Who? What? Baby?" "Heather" "Your confusing me" "I havent told you all something, Heather was pregnant with our kid" I said.
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Post by Ida on Oct 4, 2005 17:09:18 GMT 1
ooooooh!
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Post by dougierox on Oct 5, 2005 1:32:48 GMT 1
aww dakar pugsly
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