Post by Julie:) on Jul 9, 2007 14:35:49 GMT 1
Dette er en standalone jeg skrev for lenge siden, men tenkte jeg kunne poste den.
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She was on her way home from school, all alone, like every other day. She began to walk faster. She didn’t want them to see her. Not today. Everyday forced her to do something she didn’t want to do, but today she'd had enough. She couldn’t take this anymore.
-Flashback; 4 hours earlier, at school-
It was lunchtime. She got some food in the canteen and looked around to find a spare seat. There, she spotted one, but her heart sank. She had to go pass their table to come to the available one. She hated this…it happened every day. Every bloody day it had to happen. Why? It was her destiny. That’s how it was supposed to be. She looked down as she walked past.
“Guys…look who’s here!” One of them said. His name was Harry. He was the worst of them. She couldn’t stand him.
“Isn’t it the good girl who never does anything wrong?” One other boy teased. That was Danny. She had always had a crush on him, but she knew it could never work out between them. Two other boys began to laugh. Dougie and Tom were their names. She felt hurt, annoyed, and angry. Why did this happen every day? She tried to walk faster, but Harry
stopped her.
“What are you doing here?” He screamed up to her face. She looked down.
“I said, what the f*ck are you doing here?” He screamed once more. She could feel her eyes were begging to let out some tears, but she wouldn’t let them. She couldn’t cry in front of them.
“Maybe you wanna sit at our table?” Danny asked teasingly. ‘If only he meant it…’ she thought to herself.
“You want that, huh?” Harry said loudly. She didn’t answer. She couldn’t.
“Answer me, you prat!” he shouted and grabbed her. She shook her head quickly.
“Good, cause we wouldn’t let you anyway!” Harry laughed and let go of her. Dougie, Tom and Danny laughed as well. That hurt.
“Now, go! Get your ugly face away from us!” Dougie said and gave her a push. She did as she was told and sat down at the available table. She slowly began to eat her food. Finally she could get some time alone, and not care about everything around. Suddenly she heard a familiar voice. She felt all warm inside.
“How does it taste? Is it good?” Danny asked her while leaning over the table. She acted like she didn’t see him.
“Hey! Look at me when I talk to you! You’re being rude!” Danny said as he hit her face. It was so painful. She felt like crying, again. She looked up at him and raised her eyebrows.
“So… do you enjoy your food?” He asked once more.
“No…” She whispered. She hated the food; it was awful, just like her life.
“Well, I hope it tastes better now!” Danny said as he spat on the steaming soup. She looked at him as he walked back to the others, who were laughing hysterically. She felt one lonely tear stream down her soft cheek.
She felt so worthless. Why did she even come to this world? She didn’t fit in… at all. She had no friends, and she barely talked to anyone. She wasn’t ugly, she was actually quite pretty. She wasn’t fat, she had a pretty face, and a great personality, for those who knew her and that was just her family.
“You’re a legend, Dan!” She could hear Harry say loudly as he took a ‘high five’ with Danny. Tom and Doug were still laughing.
-End of flashback-
She got home and ran up to the bathroom. She was desperate. She had to find it. Now! She couldn’t wait anymore. There… she found it on the floor, where she left it the day before. The razorblade. She pulled her jumper off, and took off her sweatbands. She took the razorblade, and pressed it carefully to her left wrist, and then dragged it down the arm. The blood spluttered on her clothes and down on the floor. It felt so good, she didn’t feel any pain. She did the same to the other wrist, and then she sat down on the floor. Suddenly she felt hot tears roll down her face. This was the end. Finally! Now, she could never get bullied again. Never, ever again. Finally she could end this feeling of loneliness. She started to feel dizzy. ‘This is for you, Danny …’ she thought. This was for Danny. If this would make him happy then she was glad herself because she had always loved him, and would always do. She didn’t know why, but she just did. It was destiny.
She felt so dizzy now; that she could barely hold her eyes open. She closed them, and lay down on the floor… to die.
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She was on her way home from school, all alone, like every other day. She began to walk faster. She didn’t want them to see her. Not today. Everyday forced her to do something she didn’t want to do, but today she'd had enough. She couldn’t take this anymore.
-Flashback; 4 hours earlier, at school-
It was lunchtime. She got some food in the canteen and looked around to find a spare seat. There, she spotted one, but her heart sank. She had to go pass their table to come to the available one. She hated this…it happened every day. Every bloody day it had to happen. Why? It was her destiny. That’s how it was supposed to be. She looked down as she walked past.
“Guys…look who’s here!” One of them said. His name was Harry. He was the worst of them. She couldn’t stand him.
“Isn’t it the good girl who never does anything wrong?” One other boy teased. That was Danny. She had always had a crush on him, but she knew it could never work out between them. Two other boys began to laugh. Dougie and Tom were their names. She felt hurt, annoyed, and angry. Why did this happen every day? She tried to walk faster, but Harry
stopped her.
“What are you doing here?” He screamed up to her face. She looked down.
“I said, what the f*ck are you doing here?” He screamed once more. She could feel her eyes were begging to let out some tears, but she wouldn’t let them. She couldn’t cry in front of them.
“Maybe you wanna sit at our table?” Danny asked teasingly. ‘If only he meant it…’ she thought to herself.
“You want that, huh?” Harry said loudly. She didn’t answer. She couldn’t.
“Answer me, you prat!” he shouted and grabbed her. She shook her head quickly.
“Good, cause we wouldn’t let you anyway!” Harry laughed and let go of her. Dougie, Tom and Danny laughed as well. That hurt.
“Now, go! Get your ugly face away from us!” Dougie said and gave her a push. She did as she was told and sat down at the available table. She slowly began to eat her food. Finally she could get some time alone, and not care about everything around. Suddenly she heard a familiar voice. She felt all warm inside.
“How does it taste? Is it good?” Danny asked her while leaning over the table. She acted like she didn’t see him.
“Hey! Look at me when I talk to you! You’re being rude!” Danny said as he hit her face. It was so painful. She felt like crying, again. She looked up at him and raised her eyebrows.
“So… do you enjoy your food?” He asked once more.
“No…” She whispered. She hated the food; it was awful, just like her life.
“Well, I hope it tastes better now!” Danny said as he spat on the steaming soup. She looked at him as he walked back to the others, who were laughing hysterically. She felt one lonely tear stream down her soft cheek.
She felt so worthless. Why did she even come to this world? She didn’t fit in… at all. She had no friends, and she barely talked to anyone. She wasn’t ugly, she was actually quite pretty. She wasn’t fat, she had a pretty face, and a great personality, for those who knew her and that was just her family.
“You’re a legend, Dan!” She could hear Harry say loudly as he took a ‘high five’ with Danny. Tom and Doug were still laughing.
-End of flashback-
She got home and ran up to the bathroom. She was desperate. She had to find it. Now! She couldn’t wait anymore. There… she found it on the floor, where she left it the day before. The razorblade. She pulled her jumper off, and took off her sweatbands. She took the razorblade, and pressed it carefully to her left wrist, and then dragged it down the arm. The blood spluttered on her clothes and down on the floor. It felt so good, she didn’t feel any pain. She did the same to the other wrist, and then she sat down on the floor. Suddenly she felt hot tears roll down her face. This was the end. Finally! Now, she could never get bullied again. Never, ever again. Finally she could end this feeling of loneliness. She started to feel dizzy. ‘This is for you, Danny …’ she thought. This was for Danny. If this would make him happy then she was glad herself because she had always loved him, and would always do. She didn’t know why, but she just did. It was destiny.
She felt so dizzy now; that she could barely hold her eyes open. She closed them, and lay down on the floor… to die.