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Post by mattass on May 15, 2007 18:56:03 GMT 1
Sequel to If I Fail.
Summary
Three months after the most written about wedding in history Julie is still struggeling with the fact that Danny is just days away from death. She has moved in with the Jones in bolton to keep track of her husband in the hospital. The accident has been haunting her since the day it happend. Now... she is just about to see what god has in stores for her.
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Told you .... I`ll be here forever
"Oh god.. No...you promised Danny... you promised..."
I shot up from the bed and looked around. Another nightmare. Another night. It had been the same since the accident. The worst part, Danny was in a coma for the 3rd month figthing for his life.
I relived that moment 65% out of each day I kept myself on my own feet actually seeing the day light. Looking around I noticed the beds to the twins, and my door open. After the wedding and the shooting I hadnt gone back to london not even Oslo. Someone entered the room, I looked up from staring at my fingers. Mrs Jones stood there looking at me. "Did I wake you?" I asked. She shaked her head and leaned over Prestons bed, smiling she pulled away and looked at me again. "Whats up?" She asked. "Nightmares.." I said as my voice got shakey. "Danny?" She asked. I nodded and got up. "I need to go for a run" I answered as I pulled some sweats on and a sweater. Grabbing my ipod I walked downstairs to find James walking out of the guestroom. The others had rented a house nearby and had decided to stay around for more information about Danny. "Where you going?" He asked as he was scratching his head, I smiled seeing his hair looking like someone had raped it. "For a run" "Can I come?" "Try to keep up"
When the sun shines We’ll shine together Told you I'll be here forever That I'll always be your friend Took an oath Imma stick it out 'till the end Now that it's raining more than ever Know that we still have each other You can stand under my Umbrella You can stand under my Umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella (ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella (ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella (ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)
My mind kept drifting off to Danny as I was running through the streets of bolton, with a completely out of shape Bourne keeping it going a few miles behind me. By each tought I kept running faster and faster. Stopping by this bridge that gave you the view of Bolton I broke down, when James caught up with me I turned towards him. "Why is everything happening to me? Why is it always someone out there who just needs to mess up my life? What the hell have I done wrong?" I asked him. "You havent done anything wrong honey" He said pulling me into a hug. I sobbed on his shoulder, the world had been such a cruel place to live for a long time. And when the accident happend I felt like everything in this world didnt matter. As Danny fell down I grabbed him and held him in my arms as the ambulance pulled up. First few weeks after the wedding and the accident it felt like I was falling apart. "So why is god taking away the only guy I ever loved?" I asked looking up into his eyes.
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Post by Lise Marie :) on May 15, 2007 21:36:27 GMT 1
awwww mer ;D diggbart
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Post by -Marianne- on May 15, 2007 21:53:12 GMT 1
Aww Ja- det var diggbart det:o mer plis? <3
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Post by Julie:) on May 24, 2007 19:55:40 GMT 1
awww du fortsetter jooo! ;D bra eli.
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Post by mattass on Jun 5, 2007 21:53:41 GMT 1
"So why is god taking away the only guy I ever loved?" I asked looking up into his eyes. "He is not dead yet and we dont know for sure if he will die, they have only told us that he is in a really bad condition right now" James said looking at me crying like mad. "Im gonna break soon... and its not gonna be pretty.." I said and started up my ipod before running off again. Danny was the only thing that ment something in my life besides my kids. Its like I suffered from a hunger of him, he was the one who made me smile, the one who made me giggle when he sniffed my neck or bit me ear. Now I was only living in complete terror of seeing him slip away. Have you ever had that feeling your world would just fall apart if someone like your husband died? I do. 24 hours a day. And its not something you wanna live with it. Each time someone mentions him and the fact that he is in a coma rips my heart out each time. I stopped at the church we had gotten married at for a while. Sitting down on the steps I relived the moment all over again. It felt like I was in the middle of it, the conversation and the fire of the gun. The moment i noticed Danny had been shot made my heart skip a beat in anger. Every girls dream is to get out of the wedding alive and having a perfect with the guy you love. Dont you fear it will fuck over? I did and now I completely hate the fact that I made him marry me. "You here?" Asked James and sat down. "I just cant seem to let myself let go of the fact that I made him marry me that day" I said looking into James` eyes. "Julie, listen to me-" he started off pulling me towards him "You did not force him to get married to you, he chose to, because he loves you to bits, that girl was a big crazed and insane bitch who couldnt see the difference of being psycho and nice. She is now in jail for the rest of her life" I nodded, but still didnt believe him. That wedding had caused Dannys life, pretty much. Getting back to the house Mrs Jones and Dougie, who obviously LOVES to be up at 6 was sat in the living room feeding the twins. "Have a nice run?" Asked Dougie who sat on the couch holding charlene. I took her up and kissed her forehead. "Yeah, Im gonna take a shower in a second" I answered. "First of all.. I gotta talk to you" Said someone and I turned around. There stood Tom in his pjs with a sleepy look on his face. I nodded and handed Charlene to James before toddling after Tom, he lead me upstairs to my bedroom, well Dannys bedroom in the house. I excused myself saying I would change into undies and a robe so I could shower right after I went to change, while being in the bathroom I thought of any reasons Tom would wanna talk to me. Danny? Getting back into work? A new tour? Danny dead? I let out a big sob then and pulled myself together. Wrapping the robe around me I opend the door and walked down the hall into Dannys room. Tom was watching Preston sleeping as I walked in. "Oh yeah" He said, seeing a scar on my left arm I quickly hid "What happend to your arm?" He asked a second later while sitting down on the bed waiting for me to be ready to listen. "Nothing" I mumbled, the truth is I had did that on purpose. I sat down on the floor resting my back on the bed.
I drummed my fingers on my leg waiting for Tom to talk, soon after he stood infront of me. Smiling as I noticed his pcd shirt. "Its Gios" He stated seeing as I had firstly now noticed the shirt. "Alright" I mumbled. "I wanted to talk to you because ..." "Yeah what?" "In history, I dont think I have seen so many people saying they need to work with you no matter what" He said scratching his head. "Working with me? With what?" "Dancing" "Oh...who wants to?" I asked trying not to laugh at the fact it said So hot on his shirt. "Nsync again, Paris hilton, Lionel Richie, Jesse Hart whoever that is, Lil Kim, Prince, Kelly clarkson, Rihanna, p.diddy, Sean paul, son of dork, Matt, Mario W, Mary J. Blige again, Fabolous again, Justin Timberlake, Timbaland, The killers, U2, Mcfly, Omarion, Nelly Furtado, Pussycat dolls, Ryan Cabrera, Shakira.... do I need to say more?" He said throwing his hands up in the air. "Im sorry, are we talking about the same dancer who STEPPED down?" I asked. "Damn right, and if you dont start working again I will personally kick your ass" "So?" "And I will make sure Danny knows your falling apart, he will wake up sooner then" "HAH, right" "I saw him yesterday, he squeezed my hand when i mentioned your name" "What?" I asked in shock. "Yeah, no joke, so whats it gonna be?" "Can I think about it?" "You have one week before I let the first artist or band know" I nodded and got up, what the hell was I supposed to do? One thing was for sure. No more working for me. There was no way in hell I was going back.
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Post by Lise Marie :) on Jun 6, 2007 15:44:23 GMT 1
diggbart ^^ ;D mer snart
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Post by Julie:) on Jun 6, 2007 22:12:36 GMT 1
digger det!
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Post by mattass on Jun 13, 2007 21:51:28 GMT 1
Later on that day - "Get slutty" Said James as he poked his head in the door. "What?" I answered and looked at him. "You need a wild night out and your going to have that tonight, get dressed, like you know your gonna seduce Danny" He mumbled. I looked at the twins in their plan bin, they both were staring at me with a smile on their faces. "I wish your dad was here" I mumbled and got up. "How many hours do I have to get ready?" I asked. "1" He yelled at me from his room. I hit the showers and did what I had to do in there, after that I went to find something to wear. Looking through the suitcase. I find my baggy pants, the boxers Danny had told me to wear with the pants and this top he had given, heck the whole thing I had gotten for christmas. And this sicpuppy belt. "So i need to look hot.." I told myself getting dressed, the top was on when Harry walked inside. "Woah, you really do suit the baggy pants, boxer, tight top and fit make up thing, if danny wasnt married to you I would have taken you" "I`ll keep that in mind love" I said kissing before walking out the room and downstairs. I was just on the last step when James approached, he was wearing his regular jeans and a top that said: I might be blond but im still hot! "Nice top" I mumbled smiling. "Ready?" He asked. "Yep" "So you`ll take care of my babies?" I asked looking at Mrs Jones. "Sure thing love" She said smiling. I put my shoes on and opend the door, James followed close and we went to find the car outside. Well inside the car I took a deep breath, going out would mean dancing. And the would mean people looking at me and thinking I would be going back. Taking a look at James I started to wonder why he would wanna have me go out, the door behind me slammed shut. Looking behind me I saw Nick smiling at me. "I didnt know Nick was in town" I said. "He flew in for this" Said James. "Right" I mumbled. Something was up and I didnt like it.
"Aaaah James and Nick, I didnt know you would be goin out to-Woah, Julie, your back" Said the guard at the club. "Not" I mumbled walking past him. "WHAT THE HELL, She is going before us? We have been in line for 1 fuck-" "You wanna say that one more time? She is here because her husband is in a bloody coma and need a night out so if you dont want a hit and go on your face then i suggest you shut the fuck and get back in line or I will sue you to til your grandchildren will not be able to even pay for your law suits, so come again?" Said James. "Yeah, whatever" Said the girl looking at him with a pretty angry look on her face. I smiled and leaned on the door frame, he sure did like me. And the fact that he was having my back was so great to know. "WHATS UP PEOPLE" Said the Dj. I smiled and fought my way through the crowd towards the bar, I was going to get so damn drunk. On the way over there I said Harry and Tom. How the hell had they reached the club before us? "NOW I HEAR JULIE JONES IS IN THE HOUSE, PACHANGA ARE ABOUT TO HIT THE STAGE SO I SUGGEST WE GET HER DANCING BEFORE THEY COME ON" Yelled the DJ. I bit my teeth together and looked at James who was behind me now with his hands folded, feet tight together and looking at me. "You fucking set me up" I cried out. "Now what was I supposed to do? This world, these people fucking love your work, and the fact that your hear tonight is a fricking suprise, I needed you on stage, Pachangas people are saying they need you in their video for the next song. So unless I need to throw you over my shoulder and bring you up stage then hit that fucking stage now" He said pointing at it. "No" I said standing next to Harry. "Alright, you leave me no choice" Mumbled Tom and James. Nick picked me up and threw me practically over James shoulder. I was hitting his back so hard when he started walking through the crowd with me hanging there like a dead rabbit, kicking him in the knee I could see him twitch in pain. He let go of me. "Ah she wants to clear the floor" Said the DJ, I shaked my head and while looking at James who sat on the floor holding his knee. Two lads walked down and the crowd pulled away. Tom and Harry came to help James away. "Ready hottie?" Said one of them. "Not a fucking chance in hell, Im not going to be dan-" I was just going away when the guard who had been at the front door stood infront of me. My gaze flew over to James who was smirking like fuck. "FINE" I mumbled. Better show them I still got it, but im NOT working again. The music shot through the air and I had the floor to myself, starting off I could hear the crowd chearing even harder by each step I took. Soon a smile creep over my face seeing them liking what I was going. Pachanga joined me out on the floor soon after and I danced infront of them as they sang. "Now thats what I call a hot dance round, Julie Jones is BAAAAAAACK" yelled the guys from Pachanga. "Im sorry, I dont wanna work more" I said walking off, once again I was stopped by James "Unless you wanna be on the ground with no balls then GET THE FUCK OUT OF ME WAY" I yelled in his face. He actually jumped a notch back on the floor in fright, but didnt move more than that. I hmpfed and looked at him. He was really serious about this. "Why the fuck do you wanna see me back in work again?" I asked.
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Post by Julie:) on Jun 14, 2007 14:57:58 GMT 1
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee:)
dance dance<3
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Post by Lise Marie :) on Jun 17, 2007 14:45:20 GMT 1
MORE!!! Elsker det^^ <3
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Post by mattass on Jun 17, 2007 23:28:19 GMT 1
"You wanna know why?" Asked one of those puerto rican dudes. "You think?" I asked very sarcastic. "Because everyone loves your work, you have set more marks in that business than any other dancer in the world, and if that is isnt enough..... every god damn star wants to work with you.... what you do in their videos set more marks then what they are singing...Tom just told you half of the people who wants to see you back in action in THEIR video, so if you dont go back because of that and the fact that you need to get your mind off to other things ... then your doomed to be swinging down a very dangerous road" Said Harry. "So what? Its not anyone of you lot who are married to Danny, who put him through more danger while he tried to catch me than now, I had no idea how this got to be happening, but i put Danny in that hospital bed. THAT KILLS ME" I yelled. "Lets go" Said James and got up taking my arm. "Where the fuck are we going?" I asked, angry as hell. "The place you havent put a damn foot in 3 months, other than when he was put there" He answered guiding me out of the club and towards his car, the others followed on a close half wanting to know if I would kill James on the parking lot or just go along with it. "Im not ready" "I dont fucking care" He snapped, I stopped and looked at him. "GO" He yelled and pointed at his car. I started walking again, he followed behind and watched as I climbed into the car quietly. On the car ride to the hospital I just sat quietly in the car watching as houses, people and cars flew by us.
"Now we have been told that Nickelback is far from getting back on the road on tour with Mcfly as soon as possible, from the roadrunner album in 2005 here you got If everyone cared ..."
From underneath the trees, we watch the sky confusing stars with satellites I never dreamed that you'd be mine But here we are, we're here tonight
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive (I'm alive) Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
[Chorus:] If everyone cared and nobody cried If everyone loved and nobody lied If everyone shared and swallowed their pride Then we'd see the day, when nobody died
And I'm singing A, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive
"Their ment to be touring with Nickelback?" I asked looking at James. He had his hands on the wheel concentrating on the road, close by i could see the Hospital towering up in the sky. We were soon there. "Yes, when Danny is on his feet again. It was cleared out 2 weeks before your wedding, the other guys notified Nickelback the day after the wedding that they wouldnt be able at the moment to go on the road with them" "I didnt know" I told him. "The guys didnt want you to worry about anything else at that moment" I turned back to see him drive into the parking lot and park the car, getting back out of it i stretched my legs and crossed my arms clicking my teeth together. It was a freezing night. "Here" Said James giving me his tux jacket, I pulled it on and smelled his perfume. God he smelled good! Getting my thoughts on what I was about to do, I froze inside me. 3 months later I was about to see my own husband in the hospital bed hooked up to a respirator fighting for his life. Its not what every wife would wanna do, or see. "I never ment for this to happen" "Its not your fault-" Said James pulling his arm around my shoulder "Some fans are just not able to see they cant have the star that they love so much" "I used to have a crush on you when you were on Busted... I didnt try to kill you when i found out you were dating Kara" "You did?" He said with a smirk. "Well I mean .. your cute... " "You little minx" He said chuckling. I smiled and kept on walking. "Strike one" I heard him mumble as we reached the entrence of the hospital.
The nurse at the reception desk just looked at us and said with a smile and this weird expression : "He`s on the 3rd floor, room 301" "Thanks" I said with a smile and followed James who were on his face to the elevator. "Ready?" He asked hammering on the button. "No"
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Post by Lise Marie :) on Jun 18, 2007 12:28:41 GMT 1
Nickelback Weee Mer!!! ^^ elsker det!! Du e kjempe flink
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Post by mattass on Jun 27, 2007 20:18:46 GMT 1
I slowly took a step out of the elevator and looked around the floor we were on. The place was so quiet and dark. Deep in my mind i knew i would be starting to run if my feet wouldnt be like this right now, "Who are you to see?" Asked a nurse. "Daniel Jones" I answered. "Right over there" The nurse pointed to a room right across the hall. Looking at the room I swallowed deep and walked slowly towards the door. I could hear machines inside beeping and making noise to make sure he was alive. At that point I was so terrified they would go off saying he was about to die. Nothing happend. "Your going to do this" Asked James carefully. "I guees i need to" I mumbled taking a hold of the door knob, opening the door slowly I took a deep breath. Stepping inside my eyes rested on his body. His hair rested was falling down around his face, his eyes was closed and he had this tubeish thing in his nose. I didnt even know what it was for. He was sleeping so quietly. Taking a step closer I saw his chest, it was covered over with a blanket, but there was a slight bump from the shot wound he had. They had two times already had surgery on it, because there had been some complications for the past few weeks.
"I dont know if I can do this" I said and turned around. "You need to Julie" Said James and turned me around. I closed my eyes and bit my lip, walking over to Dannys bed I sat down. "I`ll leave you two alone" Answered James seeing I was so scared. Silence was on the thing in the air as James left the room, I sat there completely silent staring at Danny breathing, his chest rising and falling. Not knowing what to say to him I just sat there for a while thinking of what a good time I had with him before the wedding and when i got to know him. It felt like I was gonna crack, just crying and crying at the sight of him. But I didnt. "I dont know what to say.... the twins are growing though..." I said first. Silence. "Everyday without you is like hell living here, I miss you so much....I dont even know what to do anymore. James and the other guys are taking care of me. Your mom too. They are so great" More silence. "I know I havent been here since the accident, but I just couldnt push myself into facing you here nor seeing how much that girl hurt me putting you in a coma, I miss you so much, the feeling of your touch, when you touch my skin, when you kiss me in the morning, when i get hugs just out of the blue, when we just sit in the couch watching movies and you rest your head on my shoulder or put your head in my lap. It feels like ive lost everything" I said slowly feeling the big rock i had in my stomach facing the surface, making the tears press on. I put my hand in his, seeing his hand all blue from how they pressed those weird needles in his hand. "If you can hear me squeeze my hand as hard as you can baby" I said. Looking at my hand in his I just waited, waited for him to tell me there was hope. Tell me he would come back to me and the babies. The twins needed their dad so bad.
I bent my hand down and prayed. Nothing like I would have done before. Because me and god hated each other. "Let him come back to me, Ive done you nothing wrong, I deserve to see the love of my life wake up" I said and felt a finger touch the palm of my hand. Looking up I saw him squeeze my hand. "Oh my god" I said and then it was done. The tears just strolled down. "James..." I shouted quietly. Soon after he poked his head inside and looked at me, he smiled and stepped inside. "Yeah?" "He squeezed my hand" I said. "Its a good thing, he knows you are there, he just cant tell you in other ways" "I guess so...." I said and looked at him. The rest of the night i just sat there in his room, looking at him, praying, crying and talking to James. It felt a bit better knowing there was still some kind of hope for him and i wouldnt live in the unknown thinking he would die any minute now. After that i didnt go back to the hospital, his mom and the other lads kept me updated on it and how he was really doing. 4 new months passed and they still didnt tell me if he had gotten out of the coma. Christmas slowly went by, I was there at his room all christmas, but after that i wasnt. I just didnt seem to get myself seeing him. I just couldnt get the feeling of him dying out of my mind.
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Post by -Marianne- on Jun 27, 2007 23:40:41 GMT 1
Awwwwwww *cries* Du kna ikke drepe Danny, du kan bare ikke!!!!!!!!!!! 4 månder til!?!?! gud, våkn opp Danny *starts to shake him* E Elsker denne ficen <3
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Post by mattass on Jun 28, 2007 22:49:12 GMT 1
kort update. Men æ va dritt bored og så ble man trøttj midt i skrivinga xD
"AAAAAAAAND NOW RIHANNA WITH UMBRELLA, JAY-Z HAD NO TIME TO SHOW UP SO WE HAVE ANOTHER ONE STEPPING IN" I was at party in the park just about to hit the stage with Rihanna and this mystery star who had not shown up yet. "Aah im nervous..." I babbled, me and some dancers were kicking it off before Rihanna stepped up on stage. "Ready?" Asked some girl who was in charge backstage. We all nodded and I smiled.
We walked out on stage me at the front in our outfits, The chick who had been there informing us showed us the outfits, a hat, tux suit thing, ties, high black heals and this black umbrella. Standing at the front I could feel this look on me from the crowd infront of the stage. I just didnt get what it made me feel like. But I had a feeling this was a good one.
The intro part went and we danced it off, the mystery was just about to show up from god knows where it was. I stepped around and to front again. Keeping on dancing I could see this curley haired guy keep moving through the crowd with a headmic on, when he reached the front I froze. It just couldnt be.
Ahuh Ahuh (Yea Rihanna) Ahuh Ahuh (Good girl gone bad) Ahuh Ahuh (Take three... Action) Ahuh Ahuh
He was now up on stage and looked into my eyes.
No clouds in my storms Let it rain I hydroplane into fame (Eh eh) Come'n down with the Dow Jones When the clouds come we gone We Rocafella (Eh eh) She fly higher than weather And she rocks it better You know me An anticipation for precipitation stacks chips for the rainy day (Eh eh) Jay, rain man is back with lil Ms. Sunshine Rihanna where you at?
Rihanna stepped out and sang, in the middle of it she screamed: "NOW GIVE IT UP FOR THESE TWO, JULIE AND DANNY JONES, BACK TOGETHER AT LAST! I smiled and cried over again, He stood infront of me and smiled. "Ive missed you so much" I said and grabbed his face. Kissing him again felt so good and I couldnt believe I was having him infront of me. "I love you Julie" He said and hugged me.
I shot up from the bed and looked around. "FUCK" I cried out. It had just been a effing dream once more. Always, it just had to happen everytime i wished for Danny to come and see me.
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